Planning to go to Minneapolis in the second week of May. It's my first time going down there and I'm going with Tony. We're going to be stopping by at Albertville, Mall of America, IKEA...and I don't know where else. I haven't really looked into what else we should do; hoping to hear more suggestions from people on what's worth looking at.

Also, as I was talking to Tony on the phone tonight and he lay down some worrisome news on me. His brother in law is looking to buy a restaurant in Toronto and if he gets it Tony will most likely move back there and help him out with the business. It's hard because I have to stay here and finish with my schooling. I can't just go to a different city and transfer just like that. But I don't know yet, he told me not to worry because he says he's not going to leave me. But it just sort of stunned me and made me a bit scared because distance is often what breaks a relationship and I've already experienced it first hand before...I just don't want to go through it again and get hurt. He just bought a house which gave me a sense of relief because it gave me the idea that he was finally setting up his own establishment here. But whatever happens, happens.

There is only one week left of classes for us University students. I've got exams on the 7th, 8th and the last one on the 18th. It's perfect because I'll get the easier exams done first and get another full week to study for my last exam which imo is the hardest one.

After school's done I have to plan on where I want to work for the rest of the summer. I gotta start applying for places. The thing is, my boyfriend, Tony, wants to go on a trip to the states in the first week of May. So I'll probably end up really searching for jobs once I come back. But I feel like time is being wasted if I wait..

Tony also recently bought a new house. Pretty exciting. He once owned a house with his sister back in Toronto, but after they sold it Tony got half of the sold amount and started looking for a house for himself to buy here. After stressing for about a month or so he finally found one. His parents are going to be living with him as well. He won't be moving in until July though. It gives me more time to think because he asked me to go move in with him too.. It's a bit hard though because I'm not sure if I'm ready to move in with him yet. And his parents don't speak any English so it'll be hard for us to communicate. He works from 9-9 on weekdays so if I were to go to his place after school and his parents are there.. it would just be awkward. If I moved out I wouldn't even want to live with my own parents. I'd want my own space and handle everything myself.

I've really been thinking a lot about our relationship. I'm still young and I still want to have fun and experience new things. I don't want to settle down yet and it seems like he does. He is older than me by four years, and he is constantly getting pressured by his family to get married soon and start his own business.

I care about him a lot, at times I feel like I can't live without him, but with all this talk about living together...I just feel like it's not going to work out and all just happening too fast too soon.

On another note, I had been pretty sick this week. I ended up removing my birth control patch half way into the cycle because I felt it was messing up my body. It's been a roller coaster ride. One day I'm feeling fatigued and dizzy, next day I'm having migraines, numbness in my arms. Then my throat and nasals went really dry and I eventually got a full on cold. Having a dry throat was the worst. It kept waking me up at night and breathing was a struggle for some reason. So yeah, I won't be using that birth control anymore. I've never had good experiences with birth controls. I always ended up feeling really nauseous, weak, and lazy. I just went back on it recently because I had a pregnancy scare like a month ago and was contemplating between keeping it or getting an abortion. I never want to be in that same situation again so I turned to birth control. But I guess my boyfriends just going to have to deal with using the good old condom now.

I deleted my twitter account this afternoon realizing it made me complain more than I normally would. I would tweet about 10 times a day (maybe even more) on things that didn't even matter and made me sound like I was hysterical. It became a habit to just tweet whatever was on my mind. The downside of deleting it was that it was one way for my boyfriend to know how I was doing without having to ask me through text messaging. He's busy working all the time so he prefers to just read about what's going on, and sends me a text when he has free time. But I don't think he really needs to know about the little things like what I was snacking on on the bus ride to school and things like that..

I noticed that most of the people I personally know on twitter are the quiet ones in real life....ahaha which also includes me because in reality I'm not all that talkative. But on twitter everyone will yack and yack and yack, it never ends. And Everyone has an opinion on something all of a sudden when usually in real life they seem so neutral. It's quite funny to see.

I just have to say one thing since I'm still in twitter mode:

Tonight, I scrubbed my face too hard, now it's all red...

There. See how random that is? I don't even expect people to reply to that but sometimes people still do. It'll be along the lines of "Oh! put some aloe cream to reduce the redness!"....ahahha it's all just small talk. Twitter is the world of small talk.

I wonder, if Twitter gets more popular will people lose constructiveness in their conversations? What a sad world that would be.

I'm slowly beginning to feel like my old self again. With all that is going on right now, I can still put myself in a safe position where I won't worry excessively and can be at peace with myself.

Music sounds good to me again.

Lola, Oh my God, I love you but stop asking me to answer your questions when you won't even agree with my answer and think you know better than I do and think your way is always right.

Why is it that old people never stop talking?????????

I love hearing his talks at Ted. I posted a video on here a while back but I couldn't seem to find it. It was quite an interesting talk about how education kills creativity. It's still up on Ted so I suggest checking that out too.

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I'm so grateful to have my cousin here to help me with my relationship issues.

She helped me realize that I expect too much from him, and push him too hard. I don't show him enough affection. I don't do things for him and he always does more than enough for me. I need to give back. Help him out instead of push him. I need to give him space and time off from his really busy and stressful lifestyle. And love him more.

I'm so happy tonight because I helped Tony perfect his pronunciation of the letter 'V'. I have great hopes for the future in the Faculty of Linguistics!