Today after class I went to the doctors because I had an early miscarriage two nights ago. Yes. A miscarriage. The doctor's office was close to where Tony was working so he came when he had time and brought me lunch since I hadn't eaten anything yet.

So far everything is alright. My body hasn't been doing anything weird anymore except for some small cramps. 

Yeah....

I was pregnant. But only for a short time. It's hard to believe. I didn't think Tony and I could even... it's weird.

I don't know what to say about all this.

I felt sad, but more scared... and confused. Me and Tony aren't ready for a baby yet though so I was also somewhat relieved but still felt sorry for what could have been a new life.

I know me and Tony are going to take extra precaution now..

And because I was raised Christian, even though I'm not all that religious anymore, I felt I needed to send out a prayer to what could've been my baby.

Oh, I also told my mom too this morning. I was planning on hiding it from her, but I'm close with her anyway so I just said it. She had about 7 miscarriages before she had me so I asked her questions about it. She was the one who actually told me to go to the doctor to make sure everything was okay.

Man...scary stuff. Philosophy class right now is fun and I'm participating so much, but after this happened I haven't been able to focus.

Oh, I also got the job I applied for. Had the interview yesterday and was hired right away. It's at the Airport. I was really happy and thankful that I had finally found a job. June 1st is definitely a day to remember..

For the City of Winnipeg?

There are two things I'm afraid of in this world: Insanity and Tornadoes!!!!!

I'm hoping and praying that I get this job I applied for. I don't really want to say where it's at yet because I don't want to jinx my chances of getting it. I'm rather superstitious. I need to prep for the interview because my last interviews were a total let down.

Gotta work hard and keep my eye on the prize.

Xanga should get an IPhone app. Just saying.

I had no idea poker was so much fun!! Lol My friend Noonie had a BBQ/Her Daughter's 1st Birthday Party at her place tonight. It wasn't a big celebration. Just a couple family friends and her friends were there. I went with Melissa and her boyfriend Argel. Lily and Josh were there too. Noonies Boyfriend and a couple other people came and left. All us friends stuck around though and ate BBQ, some Laos food and chilled in the living room. I have to say that Laos food is probably one of the most appetizing asian foods ever. Whenever I sit down and have that food in front of me I just want to stick my hand in the sticky rice and feast away! I was so full afterwards. When we were finished eating my belly was just as big as Noonie's. She's 3 months pregnant. I'm not. Lol

A side from Noonie, none of us girls (Lily, Melissa and I) knew how to play poker. Noonie just taught us and we eventually played some practice rounds. First it was just us girls. Then the Boyfriends came in and joined in on the fun. We were mainly just playing for fun and the girls were still in the process of taking everything in. Then we started to play with real money. Winner takes all! and second place gets five dollars. All of us put in 5 bucks each.

The first round was really fun...for Lily because she was winning! lol It was like she played before because she really was on a roll! She ended up winning the whole pot. After that round we ate a bit and had a little pee break then went back in for a second round.

The second round was scary and quite long. Everyone else was out except for Melissa, Me and Noonie. I didn't know whether I was going to come in second place or if Melissa was. But then Melissa got out and it was between me and Noonie. I was winning. Hahaha I was texting Tony and sending him pictures of my stack because I felt so confident that I was going to win, but then I ended up losing everything to Noonie and was left with 5 bucks. lolll~

Everyone else was so tired at this time already though so it wasn't that exciting anymore. lol I really want to play again though. Noonie says she'll be having another bbq next week and poker night as well lol So if everyone else wants to play then... I'm game!

Gambling with friends is fun~~~

 
Won only $5 but still had this much for a moment. lol

Although it's raining on and off today the weather is still quite nice.
I woke up at about 11 this morning and found both my parents already cooking up a storm in the back yard. Just roasting some meat, corn and some other veggies. Corn tastes so much better roasted! The sweetness, and the juiciness of it....mouth watering.

Last night my mother and I went for a walk while my dad went out somewhere to let off some steam from his and my younger brother's little dispute. We just walked around our neighborhood and talked about life and our family. It was great bonding time that we never really get a chance to share since we're always at home doing house work. Just a simple stroll around the block was enough to let a load off of stress. Lately my mom's left arm has been giving her some pain so when we went home I massaged it for her. I told her to go to the doctor's this morning but I guess she doesn't feel it too serious to warrant a doctor's appointment.

My parents are getting oldddd.

I've decided to make the most of my free time by trying to read more. It has been so long since I last read a book. Actually, a long time since I last finished a book. I would always start reading something then lose patience and just give up on it. I mentioned before that I felt my English was deteriorating. Reading will probably help.

Oh, and today is supposedly judgement day.

Hm..Which book shall I read...??

I am wasting time...

money...

and gaining a pound.

All I do at home is eat!

Watched Insidious today. It was scary! Thankfully I watched it at 4:50 this afternoon while it was still nice and sunny out, otherwise I would've been so paranoid in the darkness of the night.

I ended up going out anyway tonight with Melissa and hung out at Noonie's place. We all just talked and updated each other on our lives. I kept thinking about the movie while I was there and how creepy it felt being at Noonie's since her place was big and old. Ah!....ahaha. I'm such a scaredy cat.

It was funny though because I was sitting there listening to Mel and Noonie talk while scaring myself with my thoughts, when we heard a loud bang from outside. Noonie was like "Omg, Melissa, that might be your car." So we all ran to the window which looked out to the street. There were bright flashes from the electricity post and we saw flames coming out of a garage. They were pretty big flames. Melissa thought it might be a good idea to move her car so I went out with her but we didn't move it anymore since the fire was pretty far and fire trucks were coming.

Pretty exciting night. I'd say the fire made me think less of the movie because that's something to really fear....But yeah I'm still being alert for any thing spooky because after watching scary movies I just become a believer of those sort of things and keep my guard up. I'll be on guard for the rest of the week I think. =.=

I'm glad I share my room with my cousin now. Not as scared.

Gonna watch How I Met Your Mother to lighten things up a bit..^^"

But not Twilight.

I impulsively went out and watched the movie Priest tonight. "That's as far as I'll get to watching a horror film... " I first thought to myself. But I was just invited to watch Insidious tomorrow afternoon. Hope I don't piss my pants.

It's weird actually because I didn't know Priest was going to be a vampire movie. I guess I wasn't paying much attention when I watched the trailer before because I don't remember vampires ever being mentioned. I thought the protagonist was just going to go against the ruling government and find out it's hidden secrets. 

It was an alright movie though. I really needed it to just sit back and have some time for myself. So I can't really complain about anything about the movie since it was just what I needed. The right amount of action, horror, romance (very little. a good thing), vampires. And Paul Bettany is cool so he makes up for everything that lacked in the movie.

I had a dream about Vampires the other night. I was attending a private school and the setting was in an old school, everything was pretty much all black, at night. infected students popped out from every corner which made my dream all the more thrilling and scary. So while I was watching Priest I couldn't help but feel a sense of deja vu during some scenes. This wouldn't be the first time my dreams have made me experience deja vu. Maybe I'm just subconsciously psychic.

I Wish I could eat Dakbbal right now!

I guess Chicken Feet at Dimsum will suffice..