The only bad thing that I'm getting out of this relationship is that I'd been smoking way too much pot because my boyfriend smokes way too much pot. It's making me lazy. I lost my motivation to do things. I ended up dropping two courses this semester. I don't want to do it because of what it entails but at the same time I enjoy doing it because it takes me to a happier place...sometimes. Other times I'm left paranoid and think way too much. So shit.. 

I don't mind doing it from time to time but what bothers me is that my boyfriend gets high almost everyday and doesn't really stop to think that maybe he should get up, stop playing video games for a bit, maybe go back to school and jump start a career. He's quite young. 21 in September. Not that young but he still seems like a teenager without a care. I'll give him a year to sort out his thoughts - if our relationship lasts that long. He needs to develop a type of work ethic since he doesn't have one. It's like he relies on weed to make him forget about what he needs to and should do. 

I'm also frustrated with myself because I was doing so well last semester. Things were really looking up for me. After 3 years of uni I was getting straight A's and really knew where I was headed and I was confident to go in that direction. Breaking up with my ex last year was the best move I could ever make for myself. But in the new year I was again distracted by a boy and went back to square one. 

What the hell. I'm glad I'm in the relationship that I am in now, don't get me wrong. I'm super happy and grateful for him. There's just times where we have way too much fun and forget about our responsibilities. Another thing that makes me wanna slap myself is when my boyfriend complains about how he hates work and doesn't want to work and hates responsibility. He can seriously sound like a kid sometimes. Grow up, please.